This blog is an experiment, born out of life's twists and turns. I'm writing it for me, and if I happen to get some readers to tag along, that'll be an extra bonus!
Once upon a time (late September, 2011), Hubby and I took a week-long vacation to Disney World. Neither of us had been there before, and we had a great time experiencing the "Disney Magic" first-hand. Little did we know when we came home, we'd brought along an extra little souvenir. Fast forward to October 16th, when I found out I was pregnant!
Now, as exciting as that is, it's not enough to plunge me into the world of blogging. But life had a couple other tricks up its sleeve. Four days after learning that I was expecting, I found out that my job at a major Milwaukee company was being eliminated as part of a reduction in force.
I'd been in the position for a year, and there was really no warning that this was coming. I would have expected to feel disappointment at the very least, since I really did like working there. But instead, my initial thought was, "Huh, that's interesting." After some thought, I realized that I was actually looking forward to the end of my position.
The fact that I was pregnant changed things significantly, since it impacted the predictable next step of looking for another corporate job. I could only effectively search for a job for so long, and then there was the whole maternity leave question since I wouldn't qualify for paid leave that soon into a new position. Plus, I'd feel a little two-faced taking a new job knowing I'd have to take off that soon.
So, I decided to approach my unemployment like a sabbatical: I would take this time of leave to get life in order, prepare for the baby, and think about what I really want to do next. It was a great plan, and I was excited! I felt this sense of adventure and anticipation for what was yet to come, and I realized that I hadn't felt this in a long time!
Unfortunately, life had at least one more sad twist to throw our way. After just a couple of weeks, we learned that Baby Disney (Baby D) had stopped developing and the pregnancy wasn't viable.
As disappointing as this news was, I didn't find it devastating. We were emotionally prepared for this, knowing that it was still very early in the pregnancy. But more than that, I can't help thinking that if Baby D wasn't meant to stay on earth with us, then maybe he or she was meant to help us prepare for the future in a new way.
I resolved to stick with my original plan. Baby D had reminded me of dreams I hadn't been giving enough attention, of how to pursue those dreams and live intentionally instead of being swept away by life's busy-ness and distraction.
That's what this blog is about. It's a space for me to take those dreams, jot them down, and get to work. I'll organize my thoughts and ideas, track my progress, and maybe write an interesting story as I go along (one of my dreams is to be a writer, even just on the side)!
Thanks in advance to anybody who reads this story. I look forward to sharing the journey ahead!
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